Honesty

There are times when I feel like being completely honest about everything. This is one of those times.

I miss school. I miss writing papers at 3 am. I miss having my friends live with me.

I miss Paris and Europe.

I really haven't taken to Chicago. I think that is why most days after work I come back to my apartment and avoid the rest of the world. I have read so much since moving here it is ridiculous. I now realize I am subconsciously counting down the days until my lease is up. Telling myself not to make too many connections here if I am only staying a year.

I am old fashioned. I often consider giving up my phone, television and computer and going back to a simpler life.

I don't understand the desire to have children, or to be married like a "real adult" but sometimes I find myself wishing for those things. I don't want to be a spinster, yet I don't really care to have a string of crappy boyfriends. Especially ones that "don't believe in marriage".

I wish I knew where I was going and what I wanted.

I wish I wasn't so self conscience and cold to strangers.

I've said to much and not nearly everything, but I am starting to sound a little Emo so I will stop.